Hey friends! First and foremost I want to be real about my struggle with anorexia, bulimia and body dysmorphic disorder. I know, what a way to start a blog but, this is an important part of my journey to a happier, healthier me.
I wasn’t always a chubby little kid. I used to be small and “normal” size. Until kindergarten when I was molested. I was carrying this huge secrete, too afraid to tell my mom. My only coping mechanism was food. As the years went on the more weight I gained. I was bullied, unhealthy and depressed.
I soon started counseling when I was 11 years old. At that time I was suffering from anxiety and depression. Life to me was horrible. I was bullied and had no friends. I finally told my family I was molested. I thought maybe that would help only for them to not believe me.
I ate and ate all of my feelings. I was in high school when I first started just looking up different types of diets. I remember senior year I finally started working out and getting results! people were noticing and complimenting me. I liked it. The lower the scale went the happier I was. Soon that number controlled my life.
I started restricting calories, exercising multiple times a day. Soon my hair started falling out, I had no energy but that didn’t matter as long as the scale moved. Eventually My anorexia turned into bulimia and restricting calories until. I was hospitalized.
Long story short, it has been a struggle since then. I Am still on the journey to self love and body positivity but as far as eating I am so thankful to have learned how to eat healthier through my years of dieting. I am currently low carb/keto and I look more at nutrition and not just give in to cravings. Don’t get me wrong I am still struggling but I hope you take this ride with me!